ADDICTION—NOUN

The fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance or activity.

 

I’m a strong woman. Or at least, I think I am. I used to be so sure about that. 

 

Escaping my suffocating childhood home with only a couple hundred bucks brought me here; to the man who’s eyes were full of sadness and heartbreak. 

 

How can one person turn your world upside down and your heart inside out?

 

I understood the arrangement: only to warm his bed at night. 

But then I wanted more, which was impossible considering I was competing with someone who didn’t exist.

 

There was a time when I thought I could pull him out of his darkness, but now I know it’s unattainable since I slid there along with him courtesy of the pretty little pills. 

 

Relief and calm. 

That’s what they gave me, but they also destroyed everything I worked so hard to become.

Now? Now it’s just me and them.